Updated: May 8
...God has a plan for us....
From: Austin Nissan <austin.Nissan@earthlink.net>
Date: Tue, May 28, at 5:04 AM
Subject: God has a plan
To: Lyn Coffin <email@example.com>
Hello Lyn, where have you been? I miss hearing from you. Lately I've thinking so much about you. I feel like I have you and if it's true I do. I'll hold you close to my heart. You're such a wonderful lady. I'm just here thinking about you, like I always do. Please pray for me as it has not been easy for me over here. The thought of you in my arms right now trickled my body. I just want you to know how much I love you. Ever since we started talking I miss you every second of my life. I knew I found someone special. I will always remember how sweet you are and how every time you were there for me.
I did some part of the required work yesterday and we are at it again today. Yesterday, after our errands, the doctor went back to the hospital because he had a hospital appointment, so he dropped me over at a friend of Mama's place, her name is
Joyce...pretty old too. The reception will be at her place, so I left there to Mama's house so that I could send you this email. This morning while I was at my Joyce's place....she told me a lot of things that my mother said while she was sick, so similar to what you said in your mail. After listening to her this morning and reading your mail over and over again, I felt relieved and became convinced that Mama Austin is in heaven. It also wiped out the guilt that has been in me. The last world she said was the one that made tears to drop from my eyes. She told me how my mother asked her if she was being a bad mother by leaving me. That she should please help her to plead with me to forgive her for leaving me alone in this world after my father left both of us, then she said “I know Austin, he will forgive me! He will say Mama Austin! If you do that, I will not eat. That is what Austin will say but he will forgive me” she then asked her friend to make sure that she forces me to eat when I refuse to eat and smiled before she left to join dad
My love, let me spare you the story of the best mother on earth. It was so unfortunate that you did not meet her. It would have been the happiest moment in my life to stand afar and watch the two people that I love so much talk and smile together. I know Mama Austin, my mind tells me that she does not want me to have divided love as she has taken her own share of my love so she made up her mind to leave us so that I will have 100% love for you. She is aware that it will be divided if she is still alive. She just wanted me to be happy with you at any cost even when the cost is her. I will always love you. For her death and for her, I tell you today that my love for you is 100% and nobody can take even 1% from it again. Because of you, Mama Austin sacrificed her share of my love. I will use it as she wished. I will love you. Always!
Lyn, I need to go now...I have a long day ahead. Just know that everything is going fine from here. I love you baby. You're becoming a part of me I can't let go and even though we've not met, I believe God has a plan for us.